Ode to the Crush

The Crush. If you’re human, you’ve had at least one. Thoughts of a “crush” take me back to elementary school, about the time I first realized that I could like boys despite the generally held belief that those of the opposite sex had the contagious, debilitating disease called cooties. But the truth is, even long after those years, the crush doesn’t change much.

Although some believe a crush can exist even after formal romantic interaction is initiated (meaning, a date—or date equivalent, depending on your philosophy), I define it as the period before this occurrence. There are four main “crush” situations that emerge after you first realize you are romantically interested in someone. You find yourself liking another while 1) either aware or 2) unaware whether the other person is interested; or 3) aware that the other person has declared a lack of interest, yet you persist in your interest and admire either from afar—or up close (e.g. stalking); or 4) the other person has declared a lack of interest, but you fail to realize it and continue to like the other person in quiet.

The crush is a very vulnerable state. Perhaps that’s why as you pass grade school years, you most likely learn how to get past it—you quickly find out if the person is in a relationship (if you’re wise, you know that means at least for now, the person is off limits), or you take the bold route and ask the person out, or both. The point is, you just dive in somehow to get past the wondering. But despite the fact that with time most people become more adept at overcoming the period of emotional uncertainty that defines the crush, there are those times when, well, for a number of reasons, you just kinda hang out in the crush state.

I’ve both seen and experienced the extended crush. Sometimes, you just get into a situation that somehow makes it comfortable, at least for a while, not to do anything about it. Sometimes it’s for a legitimate reason—you like someone you know you shouldn’t, you don’t feel God leading you in that direction, you don’t want to mess up a friendship—but sometimes, it’s either not legitimate for you to stay there—or, a combination of the two. The more you like someone without doing anything about it, the harder it can get to do something about it. Then, the crush becomes a crutch, and a saga ensues.

There’s no real conclusion to this conversation; just like how the end of an extended crush is indefinite. But at some point, it has to end.